The God Box

Yesterday was only Tuesday.  My husband was busy - he's a small engine mechanic and summer is his busy season.  My house was exploding with people and so I decided to escape for a few hours.  It was a good choice to make.  I don't know exactly what leads us to the discoveries we make, but I have a good idea of what that unknown force is.

It speaks to me in metaphors, it directs me.  Yesterday, after the haircut and the indulgent cup of mint iced coffee, I ended up at a second hand store called Fifi's.  They sell finer used clothing for an affordable price, but today it wasn't clothing I was in search of.  I saw a sign that said books were on sale for half price.  So off I went, through the arch and to the left where the bookshelves were located. 

There were popular titles by best-selling authors, but those are not the ones that caught my eye.  There, sandwiched between romance novels and murder mysteries - The Seat of the Soul and Hard Won Wisdom.

I thought I would have to choose between the two, because my cash was running low after my indulgences, but to my surprise and delight, I was able to afford both of them.

I started with The Seat of the Soul.  You might laugh at me and my propensity to latch on to new age anything - religion included - but this book mostly made sense to me.

It speaks of the Soul and reincarnation.

I have always been a believer in reincarnation...I have sensed Old Souls, Young Souls, and often wondered which one I was.  My conclusion is I'm somewhere in the middle.  The book's theory is, the splintered soul - one that at the end of the personality's life span is still not whole - voluntarily chooses a new personality through which to heal.  It explains some phenomena I have experienced - including 'intuition', or what we know as ESP.

What surprises me is, the author does not discount the existence of God, and for that, I am grateful.  I believe we spend our lifetimes searching, learning, evolving into an enlightened entity, and that God and His guides direct us.  I know that, at this point in my life, I feel the need for spiritual growth, to let go of voodoo dolls and pins, to be able to forgive, understand, ask myself the hard questions and give honest answers and learn from them, to follow a path that will lead to light instead of darkness.

A while back, I worked at a correctional hospital in the medical record department.  My supervisor was a sixty-three year old mixture of tradition and new age.  She introduced me to The God Box.  When she experienced an insurmountable problem, she wrote it on a piece of paper and placed it in The God Box - a physical form of Let go and let God.  I thought this was a wonderful idea, but still it did not confront the issue, and so I have fashioned my own box.  I write it on a slip of paper, give it over, but ask myself - why do I feel this way?  And the answers will come if I'm quiet and receptive.

But we also have to look beyond ourselves.  If the conflict is with another person as opposed to being internal, we have to try to understand the why of their actions and realize it has nothing to do with us, but with their own conflicts and insecurities.

I know this babbling ramble doesn't make much sense.  It is one leg of a journey to peace and to being whole, however many lifetimes it might take.  But to the sweet lady who inspired this, and the thoughts behind it that haven't quite jelled yet...you are more enlightened than you know, and you are very wise.