clearing out the new year

i've been reading around the journals, and there seems to be a "tag" thing going on where you list five strange habits.

i haven't been tagged, but i'll list mine, as one of them ties in with the subject line.  you'll know which one.

so my five strange habits are these:

1.  in the grocery store checkout line, i have to place all heavy items first.  it HAS to be that way.  first the canned goods, then heavy produce such as potatoes.  next, meats, and so forth until i get to the light items like eggs and bread.  and they have to go in the cart the same way they were bagged.  when it comes to loading them in the trunk of the car, the light items go in the back seat FIRST, then the other stuff in the trunk.

2.  nobody can load my dishes in the sink but me. the glasses go in first.  always.  i hate to see a glass that has even a hint of residue of any kind on it.

3.  i have to try on hats in stores.  they're cute.

4.  when reading a book, i always read the end first.  then i go back to the beginning and see how the author got from point a to point z.

5.  and when it comes to new beginnings, i have rituals.  when i let something go, i get rid of every trace of it, physically. 

that's not quite what i'll do with 2005.  it was both good and bad, just like life is supposed to be...but there are personal aspects of it that have to go. 

so today i'm clearing out my little room where i come to type nonsense.  i'm clearing out my email, jotting down addresses, and placing what i'd like to keep of 2005 in scrapbooks and boxes...

i'm wiping all slates clean.  if anyone in my life has a conflict with me..then it's their conflict, not mine.

and i truly don't have resolutions, but i do have goals.  and this year, i'll be my own woman as well as someone's mother, daughter, or friend.  and i won't be afraid to say what i want, or go after it.  i will, however, be careful of how i say it or go for it.  the woman i aspire to be won't hurt another human being...

this new year, i'll be who i am inside...and looking deep down, that's not such a bad person to be.  but one thing i do want is to be the person libby sees.  i hope i already am.

i tag sandi, paula, liza, bert ladybug...all of you.

HAPPY 2006!!!  Here's hopes and prayers not only for us, but for the world.