There is something about a woman that must be innate - Guilt. It's a hard thing to overcome, after years of putting everyone else first (we do that, and we don't even think about it until one day, we see that pretty red jade necklace and we have to justify WHY we shouldn't buy it when it's not that expensive and has almost made our heart's stop with it's beauty).
Well. My daughter is gone and happy. My son and his wife are happy and have their own lives. My golly, this past year and a half has been so full of changes...it took a while to get a good foothold on solid ground again, for me.
The first of June, I looked in the mirror and screamed. Again. And then I did something about what was in that mirror - so far, 20 lbs GONE, and I don't feel every ounce of them. And so, I looked in the closet at my wardrobe and screamed. My golly, what a horror. And then I went to the back of the closet and pulled out the pretty clothes I bought when I was thinner. And they fit. :-D.
And then, I looked at my Nationally Well Known Cosmetics Company Brochure and there was this jewelry...a red necklace with matching earrings. A medallion necklace with matching earrings. And then...I said, I cannot do that. It comes to all of 25 bucks and I could use that money for GOOD.
The angel on my right shoulder was letting me have it, but the devil on the left said - "Ya know, it's been a wild year. A lot of good things have happened, and a lot of not so good things have. You've lost 20 lbs. You DESERVE to celebrate and soothe with that 25 bucks."
And so here I sit, in my red necklace and matching dangly earrings I purchased for representative's price.
And I still feel guilty about it.
I'm not buying anything else until fall.
9 comments:
oh poo. Lol...been there. Every once in a while, just occasionally mind you - you must bust loose and do something good for your soul. Now you need a slinky black or red dress to match that red jade necklace. Oh, My. Even at my age I still need beauty it makes you feel good. love, Sandi
Cut it out!! You definitely deserve a special treat! 20 pounds down -- that's amazing and I know how hard it is to do!! I hereby put you in charge of the health and fitness challenge! Congrats! Enjoy your special purchase, you deserve it! Hugs, Martha :-)
Kick that devil off your shoulder. You deserve the jewelry and you know it. Paula
Stop feeling guilty!!! congrats on dropping the pounds...
have a great weekend..
Lyn
Sometimes in order to help everyone else we need to slip down into the pool of us and help ourselves once in a while. I imagine the jewelry shines right along with the beauty of the heart of the one that is wearing it. You deserve it dear heart and so much more in this life. (Hugs) Indigo
I know what you mean. I always regret treating myself to anything, but you know what? We're worth it! You worked hard to get where you are, anyway, so enjoy your new jewelry and pretty clothes. Whenever you feel guilty about doing something for yourself, call one of your kids, listen to them tell about their happy lives, and be glad that you helped create that. :-)
Yeah, I do that type of thing. You DO deserve them, however:) So, please enjoy them. Oh, and congrats on losing excess weight!
I know exactly what you mean about the guilt. Sometimes Thomas will even get exasperated with me when I say, "I don't really need that," when it's not anything really expensive, just (to me) frivolous and not necessary. I'm glad you treated yourself to some new jewelry!
Lori
don't think twice it's alright! LOL
Part of our existance is our connection with the physical world...seeing its beauty, touching, tasting and smelling it's offerings. The lure is on purpose...what would this world be if we did not interact with it?
---good for you that you bought the necklace and earrings!---enjoy them, as for your conscience, it will guide you elsewhere where you will do a greater deed!
Peace...Marc :)
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